watt a bad new ii receive this morning denn woke mii up!!! ii'm nott starting work on 20th liao.. cos the bozz say he gott a ''someone'' to work immediately liao.. kaoz.. ii mean if he really need some1 early he cann let mii know & nott when ii tell him cann ii start on 20th he say okaae.. haii.. forget it.. nothing to say.. A man should keep his words.. arghhhhh.. finding for new jobs.. went outt today with dear to do meet my appointment at 3pm denn to income tax to do his old company things.. when sitting down smoking with dear, see-ing those building & leaves around mii.. keep thinking......... Had ii really fallen down hard this time datt makes mii hard to stand up? whenever ii think of this or whenever things donn come in the way ii wann it to be, ii will feel damn sad & feel like crying.. Y have ii become so weak, Y cant ii be who ii used to be? Y muz ii face this things which ii donn suppose to? Y muz they make mii till like this? ii had alot of questions (???) on my mind where ii cann find no answer.. cann ii stop all these? or when cann all this stop? being through so many hard things & had overcome all butt why ii'm stuck here now.. ii think ii had really fallen down hard this time, ii gott no confidence to stand up again.. where did my confidence goes? ii dono ii dono ii dono.. keep telling myself to be strong like how ii used to be butt ii'm nott myself now.. ii donn dare to face problems.. ii intend to hide now when problems come.. YYYYYYYYY????????? it's datt idiot company datt makes mii become like datt.. haii.. when cann ii find back my confidence? BUTT NO MATTER WATT II KEEP TELLING MYSELF II MUZ BE STRONG FOR THIS TIME BEING.. II MUZ FIND MY OWN WAYS TO STAND UP AGAIN SHOWING EVERY1 II'M FINE ONCE AGAIN!!!!


我能爬到多高？


还有很长的路要走，我还要面对多少的困难？